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God’s Pause

May 30, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com / 0 Comments

MaryEllen Montville

“Before a young woman’s turn came to go in to King Xerxes, she had to complete twelve months of beauty treatments prescribed for the women, six months with oil of myrrh and six with perfumes and cosmetics.” –Esther 2:12

It was in this place where God hit the pause button on Esther’s life—not forever, but for a time. A pause is only for a set time. Never forget that, beloved, especially when it starts to feel like forever. God’s pause is that space between calling and its fulfillment. That time —however long, God uses to prepare us for His next…

Are you there?

Does it feel as if God has hit the pause button on that hope He placed in your heart? That vision of your “next,” He shared with you?

Are you looking around, wondering if God somehow forgot you?

When God hits pause on your life, it can feel isolating—you start questioning yourself: “Did I truly hear from God?”

If you don’t guard your heart in this place, silent as the grave, often. Still, like trees before a storm, heavy feeling, even, not light and freeing as you’d expect, Satan will have access to that open door he needs in convincing you that God has abandoned you; that the silence, this lack of movement, the stillness, it’s all proof that what you’re feeling is real: “God has no further use for me.”

You’re there, aren’t you?

In the pause? That Holy tension…

Holy Spirit will not let you escape it, no matter how hard you fight Him—not that you want to, fight Him, that is. You just want something to happen. Some sign from God that He hasn’t forgotten what He promised. Hasn’t forgotten you.

Because that’s what it feels like right now, and the weight of those feelings is making your knees buckle. Because sometimes believing for something so big is bigger than your “right now” faith. That’s when God, being Lovingkindness and infinite mercy Himself, creates a pause…

You’re no longer where you’ve been, looking around you, that much is obvious.

Still, you’re certainly nowhere near where God is taking you, the Holy Spirit keeps confirming that much…

You’re in that place where nothing but everything seems to be happening all at once. You just can’t seem to pull all the threads together just yet, so the picture of the completed tapestry is just there, out of view—still, something is happening.

God used a pause in Esther’s story to prepare her.

Again, Loving Father, He is, Jesus knows our frame; what and how much we can withstand before the weight of His intended blessing breaks us instead. “For He Himself knows our frame; He is mindful that we are but dust” –Psalm 103:14. So God lavishes His gifts of time and His personal attention upon us—ensuring every detail, each person required, friend or foe, every lesson and element needed to fully prepare us to thrive under the full weight of His blessing, is brought together at just the right time, in just the right place to be used with meticulous precision.

Still, how Jesus prepares each of His children for what He has for us varies according to His plan for our lives. “Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.” –2 Corinthians 1:21-22

Take Joseph, for instance; there were no spa treatments in Joseph’s story.

Instead, his time of preparation included a pit and prison, betrayal and lies.

Father Abrahams’s pause meant leaving home and family behind and heading off to somewhere known only to God, with no map in hand. His only directions were God’s go and His promise. “The Lord had said to Abram, ‘Go from your country, your people, and your father’s household to the land I will show you. “I will make you into a great nation, and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth. I will be blessed through you.” –Genesis 12:1-3

What about Noah? People thought he was a complete loon!

Building something no one had ever heard of to be prepared for something no one had ever seen. Rain? What’s that! And all because the unseen God he served, the God with the yet unknown name, said to. “And God said to Noah, ‘I have determined to make an end of all flesh, for the earth is filled with violence through them. Behold, I will destroy them with the earth. Make yourself an ark of gopher wood. And of every living thing of all flesh, you shall bring two of every sort into the ark to keep them alive with you. They shall be male and female. Noah did this; he did all that God commanded him.” –Genesis 6:13-14;19;22.

Then there’s the man Jesus chose to be His forerunner.

Who goes around munching on locusts and wild honey? Who does that! Yet John faithfully traversed the wilderness wearing clothes made of animal skins and, to anyone who would listen, screamed aloud about a Kingdom yet to come: they needed to repent and be baptized; the Messiah was coming—man judges by outward appearance, for God, it’s all about the heart. “In those days John the Baptist came, preaching in the wilderness of Judea and saying, ‘Repent, for the kingdom of heaven has come near.” This is he who was spoken of through the prophet Isaiah: “A voice of one calling in the wilderness, ‘Prepare the way for the Lord, make straight paths for him.'” John’s clothes were made of camel’s hair, and he had a leather belt around his waist. His food was locusts and wild honey. People went out to him from Jerusalem and all Judea and the whole region of the Jordan. Confessing their sins, they were baptized by him in the Jordan River.” –Matthew 3:1-5

My point: the list of those servants who have experienced God’s pause—His deafening silence and seemingly fluid relationship with time —can all be found between the covers of your Bible; your experience with God’s pause is not unique, beloved. From Genesis to Revelation, God’s pause button has been obvious—if we have eyes to see it. Actually, it’s in Genesis, if you read with the eyes of the Spirit, where you’ll find an instance, maybe a first, where God chose to hit His pause button. It’s where He sheds the blood of innocent animals to cover over Adam and Eve’s nakedness, their sin. “And the LORD God made clothing from animal skins for Adam and his wife.” –Genesis 3:21

“For the life of the flesh is in the blood, and I have given it for you on the altar to make atonement for your souls, for it is the blood that makes atonement by the life.” –Leviticus 17:11

It would take some 40 centuries, yes, centuries, before God took His finger off that particular pause button. Still, He had prepared the perfect time and place, had selected the absolute right, not perfect, people: friends, and foes, needed to introduce His Perfect Lamb to this world.

So you see, beloved, God has not forgotten you.

He’s just hit pause because to Him, our character matters more than our comfort—some of us get spa treatments, others, pits and prison. Why? God, our Loving Master Potter, is doing what He alone knows is best for each of us. He is preparing you —preparing us all —to be received; not by any earthly king but by our King, Jesus—and that kind of preparation takes time, His, not yours. “But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? “Shall what is formed say to the one who formed it, ‘Why did you make me like this?'” Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for special purposes and some for common use?” –Romans 9:20-21

Do you know Jesus Friend? He not only knows you, but He loves you. What if the fact that you’re reading this today isn’t an accident? What if, instead, it’s God saying the pause is over? That today is the day Jesus has chosen for you to follow Him, to be His. “For he says, ‘In the time of my favor I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you.’ I tell you, now is the time of God’s favor, now is the day of salvation.” –2 Corinthians 6:2

But I Didn’t Mean To…

May 16, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com / 0 Comments

MaryEllen Montville

“Then the Lord’s anger was aroused against Uzzah, and he struck him dead because he had laid his hand on the Ark. So Uzzah died there in the presence of God.” –1 Chronicles 13:10

What had Uzzah done so wrong that God would kill him on the spot? At first read, it’s hard to understand why God would have done this. More so, I believe, if you have an intimate relationship with Jesus, whom you know to be Love itself. Hard, that is, if you’ve let slip your mind the fact that this same, Loving Jesus hates sin and is just. That He is to be revered as the Majestic Glory He is. Exalted as Creator of all things, seen and unseen. Awed, being the only Person who ever said, “Let there be,” and there was; from solar systems to ants to acorns, each was birthed into existence simply because Jesus willed it. Jesus is Lovingkindness Itself, and He’s just; they’re inseparable.

Thus, God has the inherent right to do whatsoever He will with His children and His creations.” But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? ‘Shall what is formed say to the one who formed it, Why did you make me like this?’ Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for special purposes and some for common use?” –Romans 9:20-21

Yes, Jesus freely lavishes grace upon us; still, He abhors sin.

We’ve all fallen short, friends. We sin.

We’re guilty of forgetting how worthy Jesus is of our utmost respect, obedience, and reverence. Do we forget intentionally?

I certainly hope not—otherwise, we ought to question if we’re truly saved…

But what if unintentionality and familiarity are what make us and Uzzah akin in our sin of forgetfulness?

We did it. We committed the sin; we’re definitely guilty, but we didn’t mean to.

To even begin to wrap our heads around why God killed Uzzah for what some earthly parents may have forgiven, we must be open to witnessing God’s Love for us through the lens of His Holiness—which is inextricably linked to His justice; they’re inseparable—we cannot pull them apart.

We can’t choose one but not the other as though it belongs in the enemy camp.

God’s Holiness and His justice are kin—

Scripture proves it to us…

Hand in hand with John 3:16, God’s Love and justice, His Holiness, are perfectly displayed in Romans 5:8-9. “But God demonstrates his own Love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!”

God’s Love and justice are foundational elements of His salvation:

His justice demands that sin be punished, atonement be made, and moral order be kept—punishment is a judicial requirement. While His Love is beneficent: Love spares, forgives, defends, covers, protects, blesses, goes to bat for, if you will. And nowhere in Scripture do we witness a greater example of the conjunctivity between God’s justice, Holiness, and Love than at the Cross of Christ.

There, the jurisdictional requirements God demands be kept that justice be served, and moral order maintained were met when Jesus’ Perfect Love willingly offered His sinless life in exchange for our sin-filled lives; satisfying God’s demand for justice, all the while sparing humanity through His perfect atonement. Hence, protecting us from the wrath of God, which our sins so justly deserve. “For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord” –Romans 6:23

Now you might be saying, okay, with you so far, but how does all of what you laid out connect to God killing Uzzah?

Regarding Uzzah specifically, he and his clan had been chosen by God to carry the Ark of God using specified carrying poles—the Ark should never have been placed on a common cart. In addition, Uzzah was not a priest; he was a Levite, meaning he had no business touching Holy things. This included his reaching out to steady the Ark of God—however well-intentioned he was. God had forewarned His people that anyone who did such a thing would die. “When Aaron and his sons have finished covering the sanctuary and all its furniture, as the camp sets out, after all that [is done, but not before], the sons of Kohath shall come to carry them [using the poles], so that they do not touch the holy things, and die. These are the things in the Tent of Meeting (tabernacle) which the sons of Kohath are to carry.” –Numbers 4:15

The Levites (Uzzah’s tribe) had hosted the Ark of God for two years. Had Uzzah’s proximity to God’s Presence inadvertently allowed him to become too comfortable being around God? Had he forgotten the great honor which had been bestowed upon him—forgetting then God’s Holiness? Maybe, his sheer proximity to the very Presence of God had bred a certain irreverence in Uzzah unawares?

Here, brothers and sisters, is where you and I have far more in common with Uzzah than we’d care to admit.

We, too, forget—however unintentionally—that we serve a Holy God, and that His Commandments, those “guardrails” He’s lovingly put in place to protect us, aren’t suggestions, they’re commands that, when broken, bring consequences.

Perhaps, like Uzzah, we’ve gotten so “familiar” with Jesus that we’ve forgotten—I forget, because God knows, ashamedly, I’m guilty—just how Holy our God is.

Maybe because we live within a culture—even some church cultures, sadly—that stresses “God is Love” and He is, but fails to teach and remind us that, because God is Love Itself, it doesn’t mean He’s quit being just and moral. God hates sin.

The fact that Jesus is a friend who sticks closer than a brother doesn’t change that.

Will we see Uzzah in eternity? I believe so.

God seemingly used Uzzah, as He did Pharaoh, as He can with anyone He so chooses, as a vessel through which He displayed Divine retribution and instilled Godly fear in His people. “So then he has mercy on whomever he wills, and he hardens whomever he wills”. –Romans 9:18. God reminds us to keep Holy what is Holy —God also, according to His Word, knows the heart and secret thoughts of all men—Uzzah’s included. “For He says to Moses, ‘I will have mercy on whomever I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whomever I have compassion.’ So then God’s choice is not dependent on human will, nor on human effort [the totality of human striving], but on God who shows mercy [to whomever He chooses—it is His sovereign gift]. For the Scripture says to Pharaoh, “I raised you up for this very purpose, to display My power in [dealing with] you, and so that My name would be proclaimed in all the earth.” So then, He has mercy on whom He wills (chooses), and He hardens [the heart of] whom He wills.” –Romans 9:15-18

Uzzah stood on the very ground God used to teach His people the ultimate lesson on the importance of obedience and keeping Holy things—Holy; of not forgetting His Word or the laws He had already given them—those guardrails given to protect them from His judgment and His wrath.

So, is it possible that the ground where God struck Uzzah dead was a place of foreshadowing, pointing us towards that place where Jesus’s finished work would, one day, appease God’s wrath—that ground where heaven met earth, where every Blood-bought believer is grateful exists—I know I certainly am. “But when the right time came, God sent his Son, born of a woman, subject to the law. God sent him to buy freedom for us who were slaves to the law, so that he could adopt us as his very own children.” –Galatians 4:4-5

Some may find this teaching hard, perhaps questioning why I didn’t just skip to the part where God’s love for Uzzah saves him.

My reply is simply this: I must be obedient to share with you what God places on my heart, to not shrink back because it may be hard for some to take in—I leave God to touch your minds and hearts as only He can. As for me, I will say as Paul did: “For I never shrank or kept back or fell short from declaring to you the whole purpose and plan and counsel of God.”

God loves you, friend, and He wants a relationship with you. He’s made a way to have that with you through His Son, Jesus. Have you accepted Jesus ‘ unfathomable free gift of salvation? If not, ask Him to come into your heart today—mean it, and He will. “While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him.” –Romans 5:8-9

In His hands, To Become His Hands…

May 9, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

Wesley Mendes

“Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.” –Matthew 25:40

Not because you’re the most qualified.

Not because you have the most.

But because Jesus decided, “I can use you.”

“As evening approached, the disciples came to him and said, “This is a remote place, and it’s already getting late. Send the crowds away, so they can go to the villages and buy themselves some food.” Jesus replied, “They do not need to go away. You give them something to eat.” “We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish,” they answered. “Bring them here to me,” he said. And he directed the people to sit down on the grass. Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the people. They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over. The number of those who ate was about five thousand men, besides women and children.” –Matthew 14:15-21 NIV.

Then, the very next chapter says…

“Jesus left there and went along the Sea of Galilee. Then he went up on a mountainside and sat down. Great crowds came to him, bringing the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute and many others, and laid them at his feet; and he healed them. The people were amazed when they saw the mute speaking, the crippled made well, the lame walking and the blind seeing. And they praised the God of Israel. Jesus called his disciples to him and said, “I have compassion for these people; they have already been with me three days and have nothing to eat. I do not want to send them away hungry, or they may collapse on the way.” His disciples answered, “Where could we get enough bread in this remote place to feed such a crowd?” “How many loaves do you have?” Jesus asked. “Seven,” they replied, “and a few small fish.” He told the crowd to sit down on the ground. Then he took the seven loaves and the fish, and when he had given thanks, he broke them and gave them to the disciples, and they in turn to the people. They all ate and were satisfied. Afterward the disciples picked up seven basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over. The number of those who ate was four thousand men, besides women and children.” –Matthew 15:29-38

So we have two different miracles ……. We have the well-known miracle of feeding the 5,000 and the not-so-well-known miracle of feeding the 4,000. This isn’t just about miracles, though —it’s about who Jesus uses to deliver and what they deliver.

In Scripture, food can symbolize not only physical nourishment used to bless others, but also spiritual food that Jesus uses to feed those who are spiritually hungry; according to Scripture, that’s what a disciple is supposed to do: be impactful by feeding God’s people because we bear Jesus’ name and image. Amen?

“But Jesus replied, “I have a kind of food you know nothing about. Then Jesus explained: “My nourishment comes from doing the will of God, who sent me, and from finishing his work.” —John 4:32;34

So, Jesus took the bread in His hands… why? …because it was given to Him. What His disciples saw as a problem was placed in Jesus’ hands; just a few loaves to feed a multitude. So Jesus took it, and doing what only He can, blessed them and turned them into more than enough; a miracle happened.

Now, to get that miracle into the hands of those who needed it…

Don’t miss this, guys…

Jesus didn’t walk up and down the rows of people. He didn’t go around passing out bread with His own hands; He used His disciples. Their hands and feet!

So ask yourself this: How does God want to use me?

Jesus took what was placed in His hands, blessed it, and multiplied it—but He didn’t keep it to Himself to give to those in need. Jesus chose to distribute the miracle through His disciples.

Because here’s the truth:

God doesn’t just do miracles for people—He does miracles through His people.

Jesus is the Source—but He can and does choose to use His people as vessels to bless others.

Jesus could’ve fed everyone Himself—but He didn’t… but because He’s building disciples, not spectators.

God will place situations in your hands that appear insufficient. Your job is not to panic; it’s to give them to Jesus. To entrust whatever may be needed into His care. Because when Jesus blesses something, He’ll often use you and me to carry His more-than-enough miracle to others.

Making us: the hands that give. The feet that go. The channel through which His blessing flows.

Jesus will entrust His miracles into your hands—but He expects you to put them in motion.

God often uses what you already have. “We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish.” –Matthew 14:17

The disciples saw only limitations. Jesus saw an opportunity.

They said, “It’s not enough.”

Jesus said, “Bring it to Me and watch what I can do with your ‘not enough.’

We tend to focus on what’s missing. But God focuses on what’s available. You don’t need more to be used by God—you need surrender.

The miracle didn’t start with an abundance. It started when a boy gave away his lunch. –Matthew 14:19 “He gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the people.”

Don’t miss this…

Jesus could have fed everyone directly. But He chose to use the disciples as His delivery system. Are we his disciples today? Being used by Jesus in this way? Are we striving to be His disciples more and more? Remember, Jesus says: “Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.” –Matthew 25:40

Imagine if the disciples had said: “Jesus, we’ll pray for them… but we’re not passing out these baskets of food.” The miracle would have been literally sitting in their hands, unused. Sad to say, that still happens today: God places opportunities in our hands…but if we don’t move, the miracle doesn’t flow.

If I leave you with anything today, I hope that it is this: “It’s one thing to be in Jesus’ hands… But another thing entirely to become His hands.

When Jesus fed the 5,000 and the 4,000, He didn’t walk through the crowd personally handing out bread; He used the disciples. That means, their hands became His hands, their movement became His movement, their service became an expression of Jesus’ loving care for the people.

Faith isn’t just something you believe. It’s also something you become.

It is important to understand that Jesus still moves the same way today as He did then.

I say this to remind and challenge you to ask yourself how Jesus, who no longer physically walks the earth, accomplishes the following:

Feed people?

Help people?

Reach people?

Love people?

It’s through you! Now you are the hands that give. You are the feet that go, the voice that speaks; you are the life that reflects His life to those around you.

Some people are waiting for God to move…

But God is saying, “I’m sending you.” To that person who needs encouragement, you’re Jesus’ voice. The family that needs help? You’re Jesus hands. That place that needs His Light? You’re His presence there.

Still, Jesus’ disciples could only give what they had received from Him. You see, they didn’t manufacture anything. They fed the 5000 by receiving from Jesus—He alone did that miracle. And when confronted with any other need, they had to return to Jesus to receive it. They had to keep going back to Jesus for more—for what He alone can do. Because only with Him is the impossible, possible.

Jesus makes a way where there was none.

He makes ways in the wilderness and streams in the dry lands. “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” –Isaiah 43:19

All things are possible through Christ.

Again, please, don’t miss this: His disciples had to be close enough to Jesus to receive what only He could do. None of us can pour out what we haven’t received from Him.

You can’t represent Jesus if you’re not connected to Him.

We are not the Source—we are His instruments.

You are not just saved to sit. You are saved to serve. You are not just filled with Jesus’ Presence to feel good. You are filled so that He can pour you out on those in need. You are Jesus’ hands, His feet. You are His instrument. And remember, the disciples didn’t create the miracle… But they were close enough to Jesus that they got to carry it.

Are you close to Jesus? Can He use your hands and your feet? Have you said yes to Him—surrendered to His Lordship? If not, why not do it right now? Jesus wants to use you, your hands, your gift, talents, to get to others what only He can give them. “And it shall come to pass that everyone who calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved”. –Acts 2:21

I Have Decided.

April 25, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

Maria Braga

Have you ever sung the following song? We sing it weekly at Highland City Church; it is sung not only as an anthem but also as a declaration, reminding us that our lives here on earth are very short, while eternity is forever. John 10:28-30 reminds us of this Truth. “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. My Father, which gave them to me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father’s hand. My Father and I are one.”

I have decided to follow Jesus,

I won’t turn back, I won’t turn back!

Though none go with me, still I will follow,

I won’t turn back, I won’t turn back!

The Cross before me, the world behind me,

I won’t turn back, I won’t turn back!

“I have decided to follow Jesus.” –The formation of the martyr’s words into a hymn has been attributed to the Indian missionary Sadhu Sundar Singh. An alternative tradition attributes the hymn to Pastor Simon K. Marak of Jorhat, Assam. Timeless Truths Free Online Library. Retrieved 2011-10-09.

The true and powerful story behind this song is a sad, deeply moving one that convicts us, makes us look into our own souls, and ask: “Where is my faith?”

This hymn was inspired by and lived out in the life of Nokseng, a Garo tribesman from Meghalaya, India, in the nineteenth century. Nokseng and his family were killed after converting to Christianity when he refused his village chief’s demand to deny Jesus.

Such an honorable story of true love and a dedicated, sold-out life to Christ!

When we “decide” to follow Jesus truly and genuinely, exchange our old, sinful life for His Agape Love, our lives are transformed in such a powerful way that no one can persuade us to turn back.

Uncovering the power of love in this well-known song brings tears to my eyes. Each time I listen to this song, it reminds me of my ongoing need to build my house/faith on the Rock, Jesus. Jesus said that to build our lives on him is to build our lives on the Rock. Because Jesus Christ, God’s Son, is the Rock. He is the only foundation of a well-built faith. Luke 6:47-49. “Everyone who comes to me and hears my words and does them, I will show you what he is like: he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid the foundation on the Rock. And when a flood arose, the stream broke against that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built. But the one who hears and does not do them is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. When the stream broke against it, it immediately fell, and the ruin of that house was great.”

The power of establishing our lives on “the Rock,” Jesus, is crucial to our temporal journey; we must decide to follow Jesus, and not turn back to our old way of life.

The Bible speaks of two builders in Luke’s Gospel: the wise and the foolish.

The Rock represents Jesus’ teachings and a life built on obeying His Words and trusting in Him, leading a person to a strong, unshakable life in Christ, even in the face of trials and tribulations. Jeremiah 17:7-8 says: “They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green”. Jeremiah beautifully describes this trust and obedience as like a tree planted by the water. He talks of a specific stream, representing spiritual stability and resilience; a person who thrives without living in fear and sees the fruit of their faith even though they may be experiencing a dry desert season.

We must keep this promise before us!

The sand represents a life built without a foundation, a shallow life. This type of person hears Jesus’ Words but ignores them and puts no value on them. This type of building collapses when hardships or temptations arise.

This Scripture is a metaphor for how we choose to build our lives.

Our lives are built either on something solid, which is faith, trust, and obedience to Jesus Christ, or something unstable, the things of this world, going our own way, and neglecting God’s Word. Through this Scripture, we see that a house built on the sand will soon sink. Building on sand is building shallowly, on the surface, with no substance or foundation to hold it up. One foot in the world and another hoping to go to heaven.

Individuals who attempt to build their faith on the sand have no security, no deliverance, no healing, and no promise to hold on to. The first windstorm to come through their lives will sweep through it. They are a building that is shaky, doubtful, and uncertain about the future.

Here are some questions for each of us to answer:

1-How am I building my spiritual life as a follower of Jesus?

2-What am I building my spiritual life upon?

3-When no one comes with me, will I still follow my Jesus?

4-If I am not following Jesus, why not?

I pray our answers are full of assurance and in line with God’s Word.

The Cross must forever be before those who believe.

We must produce the Fruit of the Holy Spirit. If we are not bearing fruit, we need to check for cracks in our foundation.

Nokseng was so convinced of his faith that facing death didn’t move him.

He was so assured of his destiny, so strong in his belief, he refused to deny Jesus right up to the end, regardless of the horrific cost before him in the way of anguish and agony as he watched his entire family be killed, one by one.

What an example of faith this individual left for us.

His 19th-century life story of martyrdom in Northeast India is still very much alive today, inspiring us to live with spiritual vitality, fervency, and a sold-out love for Jesus.

Father, in the Mighty and powerful name of your Son Jesus Christ, I lift to you every person reading these words. I pray blessings over them. I pray they are encouraged. I pray it strengthens their faith or brings them to saving faith, Jesus. If anyone reading these words does not know you as Lord and Savior, my prayer is that they surrender their life to you and begin their walk of faith in the power of the Holy Spirit, eternally, never to turn back. In Jesus’ Name, amen.

I Am, Life.

April 4, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

MaryEllen Montville

“Jesus told her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this, Martha?” –John 11:25-26

There are times Martha gets a bad rap.

But not today!

Martha has become known for her busyness—always doing something while her sister, Mary, was commended by Jesus, for choosing what is best—stillness at His feet; drinking in every Word that spills from His lips.“But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.” –Luke 10:41-43

Today, Jesus makes clear, however, despite Martha’s busy schedule and diligent attention to her everyday chores, she has not neglected to hold fast to what He has shared with her.

I pray Jesus’ acknowledgment of Martha’s heart, love, and belief in Him, in the midst of her busy life, despite all that still needed to get done, encourages that busy mom or pastor’s wife, Jesus knows your heart as well. He sees that sister, brother, mother, or daughter who stretches themself daily in service to others, desiring to meet their needs, all the while praying silently to their Lord for just five minutes of quiet so they too might pour their full attention at Jesus’ feet.

Now, before running to get her sister, Mary, Martha ended her conversation with Jesus by assuring Him of her faith in Him. That she knew—despite her pain, even in the midst of her chore-filled, others need me, every day life—that she could never forget Jesus is who He claimed to be, and that He could and would do all He had promised. “Yes, Lord,” she replied, “I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, who is to come into the world.” –John 11:27

So on this Resurrection Eve, I felt led to spotlight what Martha knew rather than her busyness. Martha knew her Lord. “Lord,” Martha said to Jesus, “if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask.”

Dear ones, you may be in the midst of a “Martha” season, still, hold tight to your “Mary” heart…

It’s Resurrection Sunday, tomorrow! Hallelujah!

For the Christian, it’s a day like no other; not even Christmas, as glorious, celebratory, and meaningful to us as it is. Why? Resurrection Sunday reminds Christians of the living hope we possess because Jesus defeated death and the grave—once, for all. And that all who believe on God’s Son, have life eternal in Him. “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead” –1 Peter 1:3.

No other god, so-called, has defeated death and the grave, having been raised from the dead. Buddha, Muhammad, even Krishna, to name but three; their remains, still in their graves—but not Jesus’! Jesus’ resurrection from the grave assures the believer that where He is, we will be—He has promised us: “And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am” –John 14:3.

With this eternal Truth in mind, please pause here a moment to ask and answer that same question Jesus once asked of Martha: “Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this, Martha?

Everyone alive must answer, friend.

If not now, a day is coming, soon and very soon, when each man will.

God’s Word assures of this—believe it, or not.

“For this reason also [because He obeyed and so completely humbled Himself], God has highly exalted Him and bestowed on Him the name which is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow [in submission], of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and that every tongue will confess and openly acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord (sovereign God), to the glory of God the Father.” –Philippians 2:9-11

Now I didn’t ask you to answer Jesus’ question to scare or intimidate you, quite the opposite. I asked it out of love. Hopeful that Jesus is your Lord and Savior—that you do have a loving, intimate, Life-giving relationship with Him, and have, with a pure heart, said, as Martha did, “Yes, Lord,” she told him. “I have always believed you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one who has come into the world from God.” –John 11:27

I ask those also, who have yet to decide their answer, to search their hearts now and ask themselves, “Who is Jesus to me?” As you do, please use God’s beautiful Truth below to help guide your decision. Understanding what Jesus did for you, specifically, is deeply personal, and your answer will inevitably determine your eternal destiny.

“When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners. Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners. And since we have been made right in God’s sight by the blood of Christ, he will certainly save us from God’s condemnation. For since our friendship with God was restored by the death of his Son while we were still his enemies, we will certainly be saved through the life of his Son. So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God because our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God.” –Romans 5:6-11

Because Jesus was Martha’s Lord and Savior, she had a deeply personal relationship with Him and understood this Truth.

I pray you do, or will, before this day draws to a close…

God sent Jesus into this world to pay your sin debt—and mine—a debt we could never pay—Jesus didn’t come to condemn you, friend, but to save you! The guiltless sacrificed in place of the guilty. Jesus took your place on that Cross He was savagely nailed to and died on. All that you might have eternal life. “For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.” –John 3:17.

Put simply, Jesus came into this world to ensure you be given the opportunity—along with every man—to answer for yourself the question He once posed to Martha. “I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this, Martha?

Martha believed, and she is with Jesus today, where she’ll be for eternity.

How about you?

Do you believe?

You must choose, friends, because not choosing is a choice.

Heaven or hell—that’s all there is.

I’m praying you choose heaven.

God’s Word promises you can and will have eternal life with Christ if, like Martha, you genuinely believe that Jesus is who He has claimed to be and will do all He promised to do. Read His promise for yourself. “If you acknowledge and confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord [recognizing His power, authority, and majesty as God], and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart a person believes [in Christ as Savior] resulting in his justification [that is, being made righteous—being freed of the guilt of sin and made acceptable to God]; and with the mouth he acknowledges and confesses [his faith openly], resulting in and confirming [his] salvation.” —Romans 10:9-10

It’s Resurrection Sunday, tomorrow, Hallelujah!

I pray you experience a true Resurrection miracle: being set free from the grip from the kingdom of darkness, sin, and death; being born again into new Life with Jesus; and getting to meet Martha!

You Give Them Something to Eat.

March 7, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

Pastor Samuel Cordeiro

Mark 6:30-44 30: “The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place. But many who saw them leaving recognized them and ran on foot from all the towns and got there ahead of them. When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So he began teaching them many things. By this time it was late in the day, so his disciples came to him. “This is a remote place,” they said, “and it’s already very late. Send the people away so that they can go to the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat.” But he answered, “You give them something to eat.” They said to him, “That would take more than half a year’s wages! Are we to go and spend that much on bread and give it to them to eat?” “How many loaves do you have?” he asked. “Go and see.” When they found out, they said, “Five—and two fish.” Then Jesus directed them to have all the people sit down in groups on the green grass. So they sat down in groups of hundreds and fifties. Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to Heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to his disciples to distribute to the people. He also divided the two fish among them all. They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces of bread and fish. The number of the men who had eaten was five thousand.”

Jesus’ declaration to his disciples, “You give them something to eat,” comes from the familiar story of Jesus feeding the five thousand in Mark 6:30–44. But when we slow down and read it carefully, we realize something remarkable: this miracle is not just about multiplication—it’s about participation.

A Crowd Hungry for Hope

Jesus and His disciples were trying to get away for rest. Yet when the crowds heard where Jesus was headed, thousands ran to meet Him. These weren’t church people attending a conference. These were desperate people. Hungry people. Broken people. Sick people. People tired of religion and longing for real hope.

Does that sound familiar?

Our world today is filled with people just like that—hungry for truth, desperate for love, longing for something real. When Jesus saw them, Scripture says He was moved with compassion. The Greek word used there means His insides churned. His heart broke for them. Thank You, Jesus, for Your compassion toward us—when we were lost, lonely, and afraid like sheep without a shepherd.

The Disciples’ Logical Suggestion

As evening approached, the disciples came to Jesus with what sounded like a very reasonable idea: “Send the people away so they can go buy something to eat.”

Haven’t we all prayed prayers like that? Lord, send someone to help them. Lord, take care of that family. Lord, reach those people. Lord, heal that village. Well-meant prayers, but then Jesus responds in a way that must have shocked them:

“You give them something to eat.” In other words: You are My plan. You are My hands. You are My voice. You are My feet.

Point #1 — God Starts With What You Have

Jesus didn’t ask for what they didn’t possess. He asked: “How many loaves do you have?” The disciples responded as most of us would: “We don’t have enough.” It would cost too much. We’re not ready. Send them away. How often do we delay obedience while waiting for more money… more education…more influence… more confidence? But God says, “What’s in your hand?” God does not call the equipped—He equips the called.

In this story, the miracle didn’t begin when Jesus prayed. The miracle began when a boy let go.

Point #2 — Surrender Turns Scarcity into Supply

John’s Gospel tells us it was a young boy who surrendered his lunch of 5 loaves and 2 fish.

He didn’t know he was holding a miracle—he just knew he brought lunch.

Scripture is full of people like that: Moses said, “I’m not eloquent.” God asked, “What is that in your hand?” –Exodus4:2. The widow said in 2 Kings 4:1–7, “I only have a small jar of oil.” Yet God multiplies the oil in all her and her neighbors’ jars; she was able to collect. David said in 1 Samuel 17, “I only have a sling.” Yet God used it to defeat a giant. God never asks for what you wish you had. He asks for what you already have. Your testimony. Your voice. Your business idea. Your time. Your gifts. Your experiences. Your resources. In your hands, it may look small. BUT In God’s hands, it becomes seed.

Point #3 — God Breaks What He Is About to Multiply

Before Jesus multiplied the bread, He broke it.

The loaves were broken before they were multiplied. God will often break what He plans to bless and multiply. Not to destroy it — but to distribute it. Brokenness is not failure – Brokenness is surrender under pressure.

Brokenness is not punishment – Brokenness is preparation.

Oil only comes from olives when they are crushed. The aroma of perfume only fills the house when the alabaster jar is shattered. Gold becomes pure only when heated in the fire. Some of you may be walking through a breaking season right now. That doesn’t mean God has abandoned you. It might mean He is preparing you for something greater, for distribution in His Kingdom.

God is the Potter. We are the clay.

Point #4 — The Disciples Had to Distribute the Miracle

Jesus could have rained bread from Heaven like God did to Moses and the Israelites when they left Egypt in the wilderness. But He chose to put the miracle into the hands of his disciples. The disciples didn’t create the bread. They carried it. Paul writes: “We are co-workers in God’s service.” –1 Corinthians 3:9

That is the Church – the delivery system of God’s provision. Jesus is the Source – We are the delivery system. Every time you serve, every time you pray, every time you give, every time you share Jesus – You are handing out Heaven’s bread to a hungry world.

And here’s what’s powerful: The bread didn’t multiply in Jesus’ hands. It multiplied as the disciples gave it away. Kingdom overflow doesn’t happen through hoarding. It happens through release.

Point #5 — Faithful Servants Are Rewarded

After everyone ate, the disciples gathered twelve baskets—one for each of them. They went in empty and yet walked out carrying provision.

God never forgets faithfulness.

“God is not unjust; He will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped His people and continue to help them.” — Hebrews 6:10

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” — Matthew 6:33

God cannot multiply what we cling to. He multiplies what we surrender.

What’s in Your Hands?

The same Jesus who had compassion on the crowd has compassion on our cities, our families, and our hearts. He still looks at His disciples today and says, “You give them something to eat.”

We live in a desperate world searching for hope. And we are not the Source — But we carry the Source. Maybe you are reading this today thinking: “I don’t have much. I’m not enough.” But God says: “Bring your little. Put it in My hands. And watch Me feed a generation with it.”

God is not waiting for perfect people. He’s waiting for available people.

So let that be our prayer: “Lord, here is my little—make it much.” What are you holding back? What are your five loaves and two fish? What miracle is waiting on your obedience? Let’s give Him what we have—and let God do what only God can do.

A Final Invitation — Say Yes to Jesus Today

Before you close this page, I want to speak directly to you. If you’re honest, maybe you feel like one of the people in that crowd that day—hungry for hope… tired… overwhelmed… searching for something real. That wasn’t an accident. Jesus saw that crowd long before they ever saw Him.

And He sees you right now.

The same compassion that moved His heart on that hillside is reaching toward you today. He isn’t asking you to fix yourself first. He isn’t waiting for you to become perfect. He is simply inviting you to come. The Bible tells us: “For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” — John 3:16.

Jesus gave His life on the cross for your sins. He rose again so that you could walk in freedom, forgiveness, and new life. And today, He stands at the door of your heart and knocks. If you’ve never surrendered your life to Jesus—or if you’ve drifted away and you’re ready to come home—this moment is for you. You don’t need special words. You just need a willing heart. “If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.” –Romans 10:9-10

If that’s you, pause right now and welcome Jesus into your heart with a simple prayer such as this one: “Lord Jesus, I come to You just as I am. I know that I have sinned and need Your forgiveness. Thank You for loving me and dying on the cross for me. I believe You rose again and defeated death. Today, I turn from my old life and place my trust in You. Forgive me. Cleanse me. Make me new. I surrender what I have into Your hands. Be my Savior. Be my Lord. From this day forward, I choose to follow You. In Jesus Name, Amen.”

Same Oil, Different Jar.

February 28, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

Maria Braga

“Six days before the Passover celebration began, Jesus arrived in Bethany, the home of Lazarus—the man he had raised from the dead. A dinner was prepared in Jesus’ honor. Martha served, and Lazarus was among those who ate with him. Then Mary took a twelve-ounce jar of expensive perfume made from essence of nard, and she anointed Jesus’ feet with it, wiping his feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance. But Judas Iscariot, the disciple who would soon betray him, said, “That perfume was worth a year’s wages. It should have been sold and the money given to the poor.” Not that he cared for the poor—he was a thief, and since he was in charge of the disciples’ money, he often stole some for himself. Jesus replied, “Leave her alone. She did this in preparation for my burial. You will always have the poor among you, but you will not always have me.” –John 12:1-8

Jesus had performed this amazing miracle of raising Lazarus from the dead; now Lazarus sits down to dinner with Jesus. His two sisters, Mary and Martha, are also present. Martha is busy serving, as she always is, while her sister, Mary, anoints Jesus’ feet with an extremely expensive perfume. Martha always strives to be the best, while Mary gives her best. This story is one of worship and inspiration…

Mary flows with the moment, careful never to miss an opportunity to be with her Jesus.

In biblical times, when a young woman reached marriageable age, families who could afford it would purchase an alabaster box and fill it with expensive, precious oil to be used on her wedding night, the young woman would demonstrate her devotion to her husband by breaking the alabaster box and pouring out the precious oil on his feet, as a sign of honor, purity, and her total commitment to him.

Whether male or female, we all have an alabaster box filled with precious oil. It is the oil of our suffering, produced by the crushing we endure in life. We ought to value and protect our oil. Sadly, too often, we break open our alabaster box way too soon, pouring it at the feet of someone or something without God’s direction.

God’s plan for something so precious is that we never waste our oil senselessly, breaking our jar open before one undeserving of it, what it cost us, then try to put it back together with gorilla glue.

Our oil is extremely valuable and necessary.

The oil from our alabaster boxes is to be poured at Jesus’ feet, the Lover of our souls, not some stranger’s feet. Your alabaster box carries your essence; it tells the story of who you are, your trials and victories.

God knew and deeply valued Mary’s heart; Mary understood what it was like to give her all to her Master.

My alabaster box is personal to me. In it, I carry forgiveness, love, joy, reconciliation, restoration, my worship, my time with Jesus; the essence of the new creation God has made me. God transformed the old me into a new person. Unforgiveness, bitterness, sorrow, and pain were exchanged for this fragrant, new oil I now carry.

My perfume fills my surroundings, my fragrance is powerful, and my fragrance in God’s hands will encourage, heal, bless, and instruct others.

Only you, God, and I know the cost of our oil.

Breaking open your box at Jesus’ feet symbolizes pouring your all into Him; He, in turn, turns your mess into a message of love. God desires that you surrender your trials and tests into His care so that He can turn them and your life into an amazing testimony of devotion and love.

Each of us carries a unique fragrance, God alone knows. Our unique spiritual DNA fragrance is the result of our crushing. It is our unique essence, a fragrance God will use to reach another, drawing them to Himself. Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” God’s plan for your life is precious; you must therefore recognize the value of your oil and guard it, releasing it only in obedience and humility, according to God’s plans. Carefully guard your oil so it doesn’t break recklessly.

Judas was concerned with Mary’s gesture. All he saw was dollar signs. Judas didn’t understand the principle of worship and submission, like many of us don’t. He was looking at Mary and her sacrifice through natural eyes, eyes of greed, so he missed entirely the spiritual lesson being carried out right in front of him. Judas was only interested in the “one year’s salary” he saw being poured over Jesus’ feet. But Jesus was interested in Mary’s heart, a heart filled with humility, benevolence, and generosity. 1 Samuel 16:7 says: “For man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

Jesus said, “Judas cared less about the poor.” He had no interest in helping anyone; he just wanted to acquire more money. Judas had a greed issue.

The alabaster box is a test for each of us. What kind of test? A test to reveal the nature of your heart. A test of trust. When we can break our Alabaster box at the feet of Jesus, as Mary did, it indicates we trust Him as Mary did.

How do we do this?

Remember that the box is not physical; it is a spiritual precept.

You break open your alabaster box when you come before Jesus as you are, and lay your burdens at His feet. When you pray with expectancy, when you cry out to Him, knowing and believing that He’s the only help you have. When you call His name, knowing He is the God who sees you, “El Roi.” Exchanging your will for His and surrendering all you carry at His feet, and leaving it there. And by trusting Him to direct your ways, by reading His Word, knowing that when you do this, you can experience true freedom Jesus promised!

Matt 22:37: Jesus replied,” ‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.” This is how we break our alabaster box at His feet. A person can be wonderful and well-intentioned, like Martha, yet not fully surrendered. But being fully surrendered is what Jesus desires; surrender pleases God; it holds greater spiritual value.

You must understand that there is a significant difference, spiritually speaking, between being well-intended and fully surrendered.

I pray that, like Mary, you desire to be fully surrendered. If so, pray this short prayer with me: Father, come into my heart today and make me new. Help me let go of my old ways so I can have new oil and become a new creation in You. Today, I open my heart to you and pray in the name of Jesus that you help me guard my alabaster box, my life, and heart. Amen.

Broken, For You…

February 21, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

MaryEllen Montville

“And he took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to them, saying, ‘This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” —Luke 22:1

Did Jesus’ disciples realize they were witnessing the ushering in of the New Covenant? Had they connected the dots of John the Baptist’s words concerning Jesus to what was happening at their Passover table? “The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said, ‘Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!” –John 1:29.

Had they fully grasped that Jesus is God’s Perfect, Sinless Lamb?

Did they have “ears to hear “Jesus when He’d told them that soon, and very soon, His own Body would be broken, much like the pieces of Bread He’d handed them? Or, that His Blood would be poured out as freely as the wine He poured into that cup of the New Covenant—for the forgiveness of their sins—and those of the whole world? “And likewise the cup after they had eaten, saying, ‘This cup that is poured out for you is the new covenant in my blood.” –Luke 22:20.

Scripture indicates they did not fully understand—at least not that night.

The disciples’ truer understanding of Who Jesus was and why His Body had to be broken for them—and for you—would come later, in an upper room, after His death and resurrection, 10 days, in fact, after His ascension—and beyond.

Their understanding would come after Jesus’s Body had been broken for them at the hands of Roman soldiers—His Blood, shed for their sins.

In hindsight, the twelve men who loved Jesus, walked with Him daily, and willingly laid down their very lives for Him, began to understand fully, and that’s how it is for many of us today. Like them, we don’t always get all of what Jesus is doing right before our eyes until after. John 4:26 explains it to us this way: “But the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will help you remember everything that I have told you.”

God uses hindsight as a teacher…

Through the power of God’s Holy Spirit, time, experience, and reflection provide us, as they did Jesus’ earliest disciples, with gnōsis—knowledge of spiritual mysteries we often miss in the moment. John 4:26 explains it to us this way: “But the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will help you remember everything that I have told you.”

Long before Jesus and His disciples shared their final Passover night, the Prophets of old had foretold everything they would experience—at God’s hand. “Yet it was the will of the Lord to crush him; he has put him to grief; when his soul makes an offering for guilt, he shall see his offspring; he shall prolong his days; the will of the Lord shall prosper in his hand. Out of the anguish of his soul he shall see and be satisfied; by his knowledge shall the righteous one, my servant, make many to be accounted righteous, and he shall bear their iniquities. Therefore, I will divide him a portion with the many, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong, because he poured out his soul to death and was numbered with the transgressors; yet he bore the sin of many, and makes intercession for the transgressors.” –Isaiah 52:10-12.

Did you catch that?

The breaking of the Bread at their Passover table, the night Jesus, through His wholehearted obedience and submission to the Father’s will, ushered in the New Covenant—a foreshadowing of God’s intention. God predestined to bring about His perfect will through the breaking of the Body of His One and only Son. Jesus’ Body would be broken for you and me, for the remission of our sins—Jesus was born sinless.

God intended that Jesus’ Body be broken for you and me. And Jesus intended to surrender to His Father’s will fully. Being Emmanuel, God with us—Jesus knew He must be broken—must die. By His dying, a Kernel would fall to ground, and an eternal harvest of many brothers and sisters would spring forth, New Life—starting with eleven of the twelve who sat around Him at His Passover table. “But Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Truly, truly, I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a seed; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.” –John 12:23-24.

Eleven? I thought there were 12 disciples.

There were.

Yet not all of Jesus’ disciples could accept the hard Truths Jesus had shared with them; thus, one turned away. No, far worse: he didn’t just turn away after walking with Jesus, eating with Him, and drinking in everything He had taught the others. No, this one so wanted things his own way, his heart, so unyielding to God’s will and Truth, that He sold Jesus to His enemies even after having eaten the Bread that had been broken, Bread Jesus claimed was His very Body—broken for him…

Judas had religion, sure. He was, it appears, searching for something.

There may even have been a moment when Judas really wanted to believe in Jesus, so it surprised him when he started to feel some way toward Jesus. Maybe it was when Judas realized that Jesus wasn’t calling His disciples to a life of ease and comfort, but to sacrifice, humility, and to consider others above themselves that Judas’s heart became open to Satan?

Twelve sat as witnesses to the New Covenant. Twelve watched on as Jesus explained why He had wanted—needed—to be together with them this set-apart Passover night. Eleven of them, though they did not yet fully understand all that Jesus was sharing with them in real time, knew enough, had seen and heard enough from Jesus, they trusted Him enough, had tasted and seen enough to believe—without having to fully understand to take and eat what was being offered up for them. They trusted that in time, Jesus would make all these things clear to them—everyone except one, that is. He refused to believe. “Jesus answered, “[The one who will betray me] is the one to whom I give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish.” So when he had dipped the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas son of Simon Iscariot. After he received the piece of bread, Satan entered into him. Jesus said to him, “Do quickly what you are going to do.” –John 13:26-27.

Jesus’ Body was broken for you. His sacrifice, being broken, once for all, is powerful enough to cover the sins of the whole world—but you must want what Jesus gave over His Body to be broken for: Jesus died and rose again to grant you access to His table—to partake of the New Covenant. Eleven accepted and ate unto eternal life. One would not. You have the same choice today as these twelve did on that final Passover night.

Will you accept New Life Jesus offers you through His Blood, shed for you, His Body, broken for you, or will you refuse Him, choosing empty religion or your own will instead? “I tell you the truth, anyone who believes has eternal life. Yes, I am the bread of life! Your ancestors ate manna in the wilderness, but they all died. Anyone who eats the bread from heaven, however, will never die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will live forever; and this bread, which I will offer so the world may live, is my flesh.” –John 6:47-51

Broken Open. Part 2 of a series…

February 14, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

MaryEllen Montville

“Six days before the Passover, Jesus therefore came to Bethany, where Lazarus was, whom Jesus had raised from the dead. So they gave a dinner for him there. Martha served, and Lazarus was one of those reclining with him at table. Mary therefore took a pound of expensive ointment made from pure Nard, and anointed the feet of Jesus and wiped his feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.” –John 12:1-3

Last week, I shared the first of a three-part series titled “Why God breaks us before using us.” Today, we’ll spend our time together diving into Broken Open, part two in this series: I’ll wrap things up next Saturday, February 21st.

To recap: Part One shone a light on snippets of Prophet Elijah’s life. I encourage you to go back and read it if you haven’t already; the Holy Spirit shared some deep Truths—He revealed the first reason God breaks us before using us: Preparation.

Next week, part 3 will find Jesus and His disciples at a table where bread was broken—so that Life-everlasting might be shared.

But for today, we’ll follow the thread connecting Mary, the sister of Lazarus, Jesus, and the significance of their being together on Passover. We’ll witness what’s released when something—or Someone—is broken open.

The Passover table is set, everyone is present and seated—Jesus, in the seat of honor, then, in walks Mary. What is she carrying? It looks like a vase, no, it’s a jar. She bypasses the only vacant seat at the table and kneels, jar in hand, at Jesus’ feet. Breaking it open—the unmistakable scent of pure Nard instantly saturated every molecule of air in that room. All eyes were glued on Mary as she upended her vase, emptying the entirety of its contents onto Jesus’s feet. They watched, in stunned silence, as tears spilled from eyes locked on His, eyes that overflowed with love, and undeniable devotion—and something else, knowing, maybe? But what?

Whatever her knowing, it had driven her to this heaven-met-earth moment.

Yet how could Mary, an unmarried woman, afford such a superluxe purchase as pure Nard? I pose the following for your consideration: Mary used either her dowry to purchase the Nard, or the costly bottle of perfume was her dowry. Either way, Mary quite literally poured out her future security—a potential husband and children to care for her in her old age—onto Jesus’ feet. “I assure you and most solemnly say to you, wherever this gospel [of salvation] is preached in the whole world, what this woman has done will also be told in memory of her [for her act of love and devotion].” –Matthew 26:13

According to Jewish Scholar and teacher Hayyim Schauss, “As far back as early biblical times, it was customary for a good father to give the whole of the mohar (bride price or dowry) or at least a large part of it to his daughter.”A father who appropriated the whole mohar for himself was considered unkind and harsh. A rich father sometimes gave his daughter a field, or other landed property, as well as female slaves.

Any public knowledge of a woman of Mary’s time making such an uncharacteristic, audacious move as Mary did would have surely cost her far more than her dowry; it would have cost her reputation as well. Yet seemingly, Mary didn’t care. She had determined to pour out everything she had on the One she loved—Jesus. The One whom, in a display of unabashed love, Mary, had literally laid down her life. “But whatever was gain to me I count as loss for the sake of Christ. More than that, I count all things as loss compared to the surpassing excellence of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.’ –Philippians 3:7-8

Mary couldn’t have known she’d laid down her life before feet that would soon be nailed to His Cross. That His Blood, priceless and eternal, would be poured out with a kind of love only a handful, like herself, understand. “I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering, and go all the way with him to death itself. If there was any way to get in on the resurrection from the dead, I wanted to do it.” –Philippians 3:10-11.

At Passover, the blood of goats or lambs was sacrificed; we see their blood first shed, then smeared on the doorposts and lintels of the Israelites’ homes that very first Passover night. This foreshadowed the day when Jesus’ Blood would be shed for the whole world. “While the Israelites were still in the land of Egypt, the Lord gave the following instructions to Moses and Aaron: “From now on, this month will be the first month of the year for you. Announce to the whole community of Israel that on the tenth day of this month each family must choose a lamb or a young goat for a sacrifice, one animal for each household. The animal you select must be a one-year-old male, either a sheep or a goat, with no defects. They are to take some of the blood and put it on the sides and tops of the doorframes of the houses where they eat the lambs. –Exodus 12:1-3;5;7.

Concerning Jesus’ sacrifice, the Apostle Paul reminds us: “He did not enter by means of the blood of goats and calves, but he entered the Most Holy Place once for all by his own blood.” –Hebrews 9:12.

There is nothing random with God. Nothing unplanned, unknown, or accidental.

His timing and ways are perfect—indisputable. So it was no accident that Jesus had to be sacrificed at Passover, nor was it an accident that Mary would break open her jar of costly Nard to unknowingly anoint Jesus for His burial. And concerning Mary’s actions, as if to defend and exalt her, Jesus said: “She has done what she could to anoint My body in advance of My burial. And truly I tell you, wherever the gospel is preached in all the world, what she has done will also be told in memory of her.” –Mark 14:8-9.

Again, there are no accidents with God.

Jesus’s sinless body was broken open for you.

His Blood, shed in accordance with the will and Law of God. “Even the first plan required a death to set it in motion. After Moses had read out all the terms of the plan of the law—God’s “will”—he took the blood of sacrificed animals and, in a solemn ritual, sprinkled the document and the people who were its beneficiaries. And then he attested its validity with the words, “This is the blood of the covenant commanded by God.” He did the same thing with the place of worship and its furniture. Moses said to the people, “This is the blood of the covenant God has established with you.” Practically everything in a will hinges on a death. That’s why blood, the evidence of death, is used so much in our tradition, especially regarding forgiveness of sins.” –Hebrews 9:22

Lambs and goats were prepared in advance to be Passover sacrifices; ultimately, their blood was spilled to atone for the people’s sins. So too, God’s spotless Lamb had been prepared to spill His Sin-less Blood. Mary saw to that when she anointed Him. God’s Perfect Lamb would be broken open, quite literally. Once, for all.

Mary’s jar, broken open. Jesus’ being anointed, His Body broken open by a Roman spear— was part of God’s plan—all of it. In His Providence, God will break or allow something or someone to be broken open, so that its precious content can be released for use: blessing those it touches by healing them, saving them, anointing them for future use, or whatever else God sees fit to do. In His Sovereignty, God ensures that what needs to be broken open will be, releasing what’s within to accomplish His predestined purpose fully.

Has God allowed you to be broken open?

If so, rejoice, beloved! God is releasing what He placed in you, precious and costly, to bless, help heal, save, or anoint His own—or those who will be. You being broken open released what God knew they needed. See, that’s the thing about being broken open, it’s seldom about us; it’s about what’s in us waiting on God’s perfect timing to be released, like with Mary’s jar of costly Nard broken open at the exact moment it needed to be used to anoint God’s Spotless Lamb for His death.

Crazy, right! To rejoice in your pain. Yet isn’t that what our Lord did? “…Who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” –Hebrews 12:2-3

Do you know this Jesus who allowed Himself to be broken open for you? You can if you want to. Ask Jesus into your life, and mean it, if you will, and do—Jesus will do the rest. “If you declare with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. “For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.” –Romans 10:9-10

Creeks Before Crowns. Part 1 of a series.

February 7, 2026 / ministermaryellen@gmail.com

MaryEllen Montville

“Then the Lord said to Elijah, “Go to the east and hide by Kerith Brook, near where it enters the Jordan River. Drink from the brook and eat what the ravens bring you, for I have commanded them to bring you food.” –1 Kings 17:2-4

In the greatness of our troubles, there may often be space for the greater display of the goodness of God! –Charles H. Spurgeon

Seemingly, out of nowhere, no introduction or explanation for his explosive appearance on the scene, we meet Elijah, the Tishbite. No reason is given for Elijah’s blurting out a rather odd proclamation to King Ahab. We only get: “Now Elijah, who was from Tishbe in Gilead, told King Ahab, ‘As surely as the Lord, the God of Israel, lives—the God I serve—there will be no dew or rain during the next few years until I give the word.

That’s it.

Next thing we know, God tells Elijah to head to a brook to drink its water and be fed there by ravens.

What is happening here!

To explain this fully would take more time than we have. For the sake of time, then, I’ll share just two snippets of Elijah’s story—God’s calling on Elijah’s life and God’s hiding of this unusual character by a brook.

Spoiler alert: Today’s teaching is part one in a three-part series titled “Why God breaks us before using us.”

I’ll wrap up this series on Saturday, February 21^st.

For today, parts of Elijah’s story will make up the crux of this teaching—a way for me to get us going in the direction God is calling us: into His “next,” but first—preparation.

In the following weeks, as we move through parts 2 and 3 of this series, we’ll meet others who share similar bits of Elijah’s story: a woman with an alabaster jar. Through her, we’ll learn our being broken is, at times, God’s best for us. Part 3 will bring us before Jesus, His disciples, and a King-sized crowd, which will teach us that there will be times when breaking is necessary to see multiplication, but I’m getting ahead of myself. Back to Elijah.

Elijah was audacious. A bold prophet, used by God to gather a nation back to Himself—much like God uses you and me, daily. Okay, maybe He doesn’t use us daily to draw a whole nation to Himself, we can only pray for such a privilege. Still, Jesus will use us to draw one soul to Himself, which, to God, is of extraordinary value.

Really? Just one soul, why? As my pastor so aptly put it: “Jesus paid for that one soul with His very life.”

Read Elijah’s full story for yourself in 1 Kings, chapters 17–19 & 21, and 2 Kings, chapters 1–2. These scriptures remind us that, though mighty indeed, hand-picked by God, Elijah, like you and me, was just a man, possessing a measure of faith given to him by God to accomplish His will. “Elijah was as human as we are, and yet when he prayed earnestly that no rain would fall, none fell for three and a half years!” –James 5:17.

Elijah was a man who, on occasion, had a propensity for self-aggrandizement—a pitfall for some of God’s chosen vessels, for sure—this, taking oneself too seriously. Still, that didn’t prevent God from using Elijah to face off against and defeat 450 false prophets of Baal. Thankfully, our character flaws don’t prevent Jesus from using us.

Know this, however: as surely as God dealt with the unbecoming character flaws in Elijah, He’ll deal with us (1 Kings 19:10, 14). God has no problem putting those He loves, who are being shaped for greater use, into the smelter’s fire—it’s there where He removes our dross; the “yuck” of self that looks nothing like Jesus. “Those I love I rebuke and discipline. Therefore be earnest and repent.” –Revelation 3:19

“So Ahab sent to all the people of Israel and gathered the prophets together at Mount Carmel. And Elijah came near to all the people and said, “How long will you go limping between two different opinions? If the Lord is God, follow him; but if Baal, then follow him.” And the people did not answer him a word. Then Elijah said to the people, “I, even I only, am left a prophet of the Lord, but Baal’s prophets are 450 men. Let two bulls be given to us, and let them choose one bull for themselves and cut it in pieces and lay it on the wood, but put no fire to it. And I will prepare the other bull and lay it on the wood and put no fire to it. And you call upon the name of your God, and I will call upon the name of the Lord, and the God who answers by fire, he is God.” And all the people answered, “It is well spoken.” –1 Kings 18:20-24.

What’s my point in all of this?

To use snippets of Elijah’s life to help us gain insight into the necessity of God preparing us for future use.

Elijah means: “My God is Yahweh.” Elijah knew God. He trusted God.

Both His words and deeds affirm this, for the most part.

Remember, I said earlier that Elijah was a man just like us? Even the strongest of us — those with great faith, deeply rooted in a loving, intimate relationship with God — have these human moments of abject failure — Elijah was no different. I find this very comforting.

Seemingly, little time passed between Elijah’s bold proclamation to King Ahab and the Lord’s command for Elijah to go holed up beside the brook. What’s that all about?

Answer: preparation! A seeming anomaly, right? Why would a man with faith enough to make such a bold proclamation to a King on God’s behest need further preparation? This is a great enigma of our Christian faith: the more God entrusts to us, the deeper our relationship with God’s Holy Spirit becomes, the more preparation we’ll need—deeper pruning, greater obedience, ongoing refining, death to self/self-will—aka, preparation. Elijah was no different.

Some notable examples of the working of this mysterious Truth are the Twelve Disciples of Jesus: men hand-chosen by God who, like Elijah, needed refining and preparation both to continue and complete the work assigned to them—to build His Church. So if you say, as they did, as Samuel did: “Here I am, Lord, use me, send me,” then get ready. At some point, you too will be destined to enter the fiery furnace of affliction—and that, friend, is your safest place to be—yet another great, mysterious Truth! “Then David said to Gad, “I am in great distress. Let us fall into the hands of the Lord, for His mercies are great, but do not let me fall into the hands of man.” –2 Samuel 24:14

Preparing Elijah for greater use was only one reason God had him make such a bold statement to King Ahab; God’s desire to restore His people to Himself was the other. Thus, God hid Elijah in a place of isolation beside the Kerith brook, where he would have to rely solely on God for everything—preparation.

By the way, Kerith means “cutting,” “separation.”

At Kerith, God would remove what no longer served Elijah; for his own good, there were things God had to deal with in Elijah before He’d release him to step into his greatest assignment—Mount Carmel. Out of a deep love for Elijah, God would burn away vestiges of his independence and self-will, reshaping Elijah into a more God-reliant, faithful vessel, fit for future use. Fitting, right? Since “A little leaven leavens the whole lump.” –Galatians 5:9

Has God led you to Kerith?

If so, rejoice and be glad!

Creeks always precede crowns.

Brothers and sisters in Christ, be still and trust God in your season of preparation—of His breaking to remake you ready for your next. Receive with glad expectation the water and bread God will provide you—supernatural nourishment you’ll need to mount up renewed, refreshed, made ready to fulfill your next assignment. “But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.” –Isaiah 40:31

Friends, you, too, can experience renewal and refreshment—being made ready for all God has destined for you to do—by accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior. If you humble yourself before Him, He will raise you up a new creation! Jesus Himself said: “I tell you the truth, those who listen to my message and believe in God who sent me have eternal life. They will never be condemned for their sins, but they have already passed from death into life.” –John 5:24

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