Kendra Santilli

If life is a journey, that must mean there is a process. We love the adventure of going on a journey but shy away from the challenge of the inevitable process accompanying it. If you are anything like me, your brain is an idea factory, a well-oiled machine—whipping up business or work improvement ideas. People like us have the ambition to get things started by formulating a plan, but we’re slack in carrying it through. I have heard it said that motivation is a great tool to get started toward a goal, but discipline is the element required to complete it. Whether it is a new diet, exercise program, or something as simple as an attitude adjustment, it is easy to fall off the wagon when things do not progress as quickly as we want them to. We want to see our maturity instantly but do not have the drive to get through the tough stuff.

While we start with inspiration from individuals who have succeeded in what we want to achieve, we do not always realize the dedication it took them to get there. I’m talking about that feeling we get when seeing before and after pictures on home improvement projects or the before and after photos of one’s weight loss. What is not pictured are the failures and small victories they achieve along the way over months or years. We don’t see the sacrifices and challenges that become the steppingstones to their final destination. We forget that consistency and discipline are the most crucial ingredients for success.

The same is true for our spiritual lives.

Today I would like to introduce you to the Old Testament prophet Ezekiel. This ancient book was written to make plain God’s judgment on Israel: it’s also a prophetic glimpse into their future. The same God that spoke to Ezekiel then is speaking to us still. God does not change. His heart has remained the same, and like the entire Bible, Ezekiel’s message still speaks to us. Ezekiel 36:26-27 reads, “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. I will place my Spirit within you and cause you to follow my statutes and carefully observe my ordinances.”

This verse is brimming with the hope of the final destination. It is saying that God’s plan for His people was once again for them to become inclined towards Him. The “heart of stone” here represents stubbornness or pride, the calloused part of humanity that declares we do not need God when, in fact, He designed us to function optimally in communion with Him. The “heart of flesh” means the person is softened towards the things of God. Their desire becomes that of pleasing Him, not rebellion against Him. It is only through a softened heart that the Spirit of God can dwell within us to help us follow His ways.

So, while this verse speaks to the goal, the preceding chapters describe the first steps God had to take, exposing the wickedness of man. For God to work in us, He first has to remove our broken pieces, making room for what is good. God gives Ezekiel prophetic visions of the rampant sin among His people, the Israelites. When God gave Ezekiel these visions, it was understood that the acts of the Israelites broke His heart. Scripture shows us time and time again that God and sin cannot coexist, yet God longs for a relationship with sinful mankind. Can you see the dilemma? He wanted to dwell with man but could not. You must understand this: generations before this, the Lord gave laws to Moses for the people to have a guide for living rightly before God so that they could have a relationship, but because they disobeyed these laws, God grew displeased. Even with clear-cut expectations, the Israelites still didn’t get it. If you read the chapters before this, they are riddled with judgment as Ezekiel exposes Israel of all her sins.

Like Israel, our walk with God ebbs and flows. God never changes. He remains constant in all things. The ebb and flow come from us; we are inconsistent. When we first come to the Lord, we are filled with the excitement of new hope. Then as we read the Bible and spend time with God, conviction begins to grab hold of our hearts, making us quite uncomfortable. This reflection is the part where the easy option is to stop pursuing God because, amid that expository process, it feels as though you will never reach the maturity of the examples that you see around you.

Let me remind you: you were not there during their process! And you cannot compare your process to someone else’s final product.

Every person who seeks God will find themselves exposed by His word. The Bible says, “there is no one righteous, not even one; … there is no one who does good, not even one.” – Romans 3:11a-12b. According to the Bible, even your best day is not good enough before God. The process of walking with the Lord may feel like condemnation at first. It may feel like the judgment that we read about in the first half of the book of Ezekiel, but if you stay the course, that feeling of judgment will turn to a sense of hope as He turns your heart from stone to flesh. Discomfort should not be the thing that stops you from pursuing God. Instead, it should propel you closer to Him as He is the only one who can redeem what once was lost. When you believe in Jesus, you receive the righteousness of God. Those failed attempts to start living better and be a better person are no surprise because that can only be accomplished through Jesus. “The righteousness of God is through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe.” – Romans 3:22. “God made [Jesus] who did not know sin to be sin for us, so that in [Jesus] we might become the righteousness of God.” – 2 Corinthians 5:21 (emphasis my own). Jesus is the key to our ability to live a righteous life. We cannot do it without Him. Our being molded into His image is hard but worth it. Jesus promised that He would make us new. Our responsibility is to believe what He says and ask for the faith to walk unwavering with Him.

If you don’t yet know Jesus, I invite you to ask Him into those uncomfortable spaces in your heart, to clean them, making things new within you. Jesus wants to walk with you despite your mess. God made a way for a relationship with Him to be possible through Jesus. Ask Jesus to give you a new heart and renew a right spirit within you, His Holy Spirit.