MaryEllen Montville

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline” –2 Timothy 1:7.

Amalgamation. For some Christians, it looks something like this: with one hand, we take the Hand of the One True God, confessing Him as our Lord, while with our other, we hold onto the god of our flesh, our habitual, sinful wants, and deeds; playing with dead things, we dip our hand back into our baptismal font, helping our “old man” step out to run amuck for a bit. “For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out” –Romans 7:18.

Yet Jesus made it abundantly clear that no man can serve two masters—this spiritual principle, as true today as the day the Lord taught us that we cannot serve Him and mammon—Matthew 6:24. The Spirit and flesh will always be at war. Listen to how the Apostle Paul describes this ongoing battle: “For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh” –Galatians 5:17.

So who wins this ongoing battle? Answer: Whomever we arm. And for this, I thank God for His amazing grace!

Beloved, we get to choose the victor; remember, Christ has already given us everything we need to win this ongoing war. So we defeat our flesh moment by moment, decision by painful decision; by choosing to put to death the old man with his sinful desires—its contrary-ness to the Most High God. We must be intentional, determined to choose Godliness. Being led, taught, and changed by God’s Holy Spirit, willingly surrendering our old man into God’s capable charge. The Potter then, spinning us afresh, reshaping and folding in, a new, pure, holy vessel birthed from the old. From an acorn, a mighty oak is born. “So I went down to the potter’s house, and I saw him working at the wheel. But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him” –Jeremiah 18:3-4.

“But you don’t understand. I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember.”

“I’m naturally a shy person.”

“I was born gay.”

“My father was an alcoholic. It’s in my genes.”

“I’ve never been comfortable around a bunch of people.

“I couldn’t possibly speak/sing/teach in front of others.”

And the list goes on…

I’m confident you would have no problem plugging in your own “I’ve always been” into this list.

Yet, Scripture makes clear there comes a time in our walk with God when milk must be exchanged for meat—least we stay spiritual children, stunted, never maturing into the fullness of Godly adulthood. A time when we must determine, choose, change over comfort, habit, and the familiar.

As Peter was approaching the end of his life, he shared the following wisdom with us—a parting gift, a spiritual building block, a sure foundation upon which we can build. “For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love” –2 Peter 1:5-7. Peter is reminding us God has given us everything we need to live Godly lives; now keep going. Press on. Desire more of what you’ve been freely given. Hunger for more, more of God and less of you, more holy boldness, obedience, power, more of what God has for you. Our desiring to live and walk out our faith as Christ commanded, outweighing everything else. “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” –2 Corinthians 5:17.

Question is, will we choose to believe this? To put legs under it, walking it out day by day? It is, after all, our choice.

Remember, Christ Jesus has assured us everything we need to live out this “new life” in Him was accomplished on His Cross. Nothing else is necessary—on God’s part, that is. “His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. –2 Peter 1:3-4. Any work left to do then is ours; it starts with our first believing in Christ Jesus and then agreeing with Him, allowing Him to change how we define ourselves—from the inside out. Taking God at His Word that we truly have been born anew, spiritually speaking—whether we feel new or not. Choice is the lifeblood of faith—believing in what we cannot see—trusting in it, partnering with the power and ability of the One who has called us out of darkness into His glorious Light. “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen”–Hebrews 1:1.

We must choose to trust that we have been set free from our “old man with its carnal lust” and are “free indeed” to begin our new life in Christ—with Christ. “For in Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set you free from the law of sin and death” –Romans 8:2.

Living a life of dependence on Jesus now, a life fueled by His every promise. Confident that Jesus cannot lie, we must choose to place the full weight of our trust in God, day by day, living as the new creations we are, or, conversely, we can choose to keep going back, dredging up our old man, dead in his watery grave. Placing our faith instead in “I’ve always been this way.” “My mother/father/ fill in the blank—told me I’ll never amount to anything more than this.”

Yet to mature spiritually, live, and move as God intended, we must allow God’s Holy Spirit unrestricted access to every inch of us.

And yet, amazingly, God has afforded us free will because of His great love for us. This means we can say no to Jesus or His Holy Spirit. Jesus has afforded us the choice to stay stuck in our pain, living fractured, half-lives while on our way to heaven, missing out on the whole, rich, depth of relationship His life, death, and resurrection has provided those who trust Him.

Remember, God’s Holy Spirit is a gentleman. He will not force Himself upon you (even though He is God and can do whatever He wishes). We must bid God welcome. Affording His Holy Spirit unrestricted freedom to walk in and out of the “chambers of our heart,” as jacked-up and messy as they may be. Bid Him welcome into our deepest hurt, that He might roll back that massive stone we placed over our hearts when we were four, twelve, twenty—or yesterday; that instant we swore to ourselves no one would ever hurt us/ have access to our hearts in that same way, ever again.

Yet, to walk in this fullness of Jesus Beloved, in all He has destined for us, to walk in love as He is love, we must choose to live holy, un-comfortable.

Will you join me today in saying yes for the first or maybe the hundredth time, choosing God over self?

And fear not! None of us are worthy of being chosen by God, friend. Isaiah, Job, the Apostle Peter, and Paul have each attested to this truth. Still, you must decide for yourself to choose Jesus over your “I’ve always been.” So, if Christ Jesus is bidding you to leave yourself behind, with all the comforts of the familiar, that you might live in the fullness of all He has for you, which will you choose?

Remember, the choice is yours to make. I encourage you, friend—choose Life. “Jesus said to him, “I am the [only] Way [to God] and the [real] Truth and the [real] Life; no one comes to the Father but through Me” –John 14:6.

And if you have yet to ask Jesus into your heart as Lord and Savior, choose to do so today, friend. Scripture assures us no man is promised tomorrow—Truth remains Truth, even when it makes us uncomfortable. So please, don’t let today pass without choosing to ask God into your life.